I know you are full of hate toward men. I think you are in a lot of pain. Heck. me to. I also suffered at the hands of guys. VERY evil guys. The facts are? not all men are rapists and not all men will harm women. Not all. I hope whoever you are. You will find someone to prove you wrong. Some good men are still present. Its not completely hopeless. Just hold onto the hope you aren’t alone. Many of us are suffering these days. Memories have a way of haunting us. I hope you will be okay.