Usually, yeah, I am. Calling me the same pet name every day? It’s sweet. That’s love. It might not be romantic love, but it’s giving love. Maybe it is romantic interest though.

It’s deep enough that it cause a guy my age, who I know of for 20 some odd years from work, who he and his wife or ex wife, whatever are friends with one of my best and oldest friends ever, who hears her call me it, and only it multiple times to step up and passively aggressively call it. There was some aggravation there. I guarantee you she does not call any of those guys that. He literally stepped in from another room hearing it and kind of “raw raw raw, you can’t put that s*** there there…” to wich I laughed and continued. He heard it from another room, came out, and like I said passive aggressively annoyed by it. I’m not doing anything, I am not flirting, I’m not trying, then when I’m about to leave and she says it again in front of him, he basically looked at her and said “ya know, if you you really knew this guy, you wouldn’t be saying that…” sort of serious (but wrong) but yeah.

My point is that it IS love in one form. That’s just one small example too. It bothered him. And it could be for any number of reasons. Deep down, underneath the surface, he don’t like me. I am better than him in more than one way. I’m more of a man in other ways. Not that I dislike the guy, but I sense a bit of I don’t know what the word I’m looking for is, I have seen it a lot in my life, guys hate that about me. Especially of we are not friends. I have this magnetism and they don’t get it. They think that I’m not worthy, how could it be, but it is. They can’t figure it out. It’s because I’m doing it right. It’s not me that’s square lamo, it’s you. I have seen it so so many times in life. So many times. These guys are resentful, envious, jealous, and sometimes I don’t even know what their problem is. You try too hard. You have the wrong ideas of how to get it in your head.