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I lie.

I lie pretty much about anything. I don’t know why i lie, i just do.
I can’t remember the first lies i told, i don’t know why i started lying.
I lied to my girlfriend about being unwell, to get out of situations, perhaps to avoid her, perhaps for sympathy. I don’t know.

I lied to her about my family, i still do, how they don’t really know much about her. I don’t know why i tell what i do to her. But i do.

I lied about my financial situation to my friends, my girlfriend. I still don’t know why. Attention. Probably. To cover up that i have very little to offer people. Probably.

I want to stop. But i can’t. I don’t know what to do. I really don’t deserve the people around me that care about me.

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