I have a huge fear of the dark. Even when I’m with other people, I panic when the lights are off. Like I feel the change in my breathing, I get shaky, my heart rate goes up, the whole nine yards.
The reason why this confession is such a big deal is because IRL I’m the last person you’ll expect to be scared of the dark.
I’ll go down alone at 3 am if I forget something, I can stay home alone if need be. I sleep alone, and I sleep with the lights off of my own volition even though I can do otherwise quite easily if need be.
But when I’m alone and the lights are off before I sleep, I turn on my phone flashlight, wrap myself tightly under my blanket, say multiple prayers and hope that the ‘footsteps’ and ‘noises’ I hear mean nothing.
I just feel like I should at least put this down somewhere