So recently (and I mean like last month) I kinda liked this guy and we have soooooo much in common we even have the same lucky number and ideas about stuff. I could pretty much feel that he had a crush on me but wasn’t sure and one day (in text) I was asking ab his crush (bc he posted ab it) & basically I asked targeted questions which led him to confess and he asked me to go on a date with him (the confession was cute tho, but he wanted to GO TO THE MOVIES.. but I know he meant it genuinely, not in that way but still). After his confession I pretty much realized that I didn’t really wanna date him and I felt bad ab kinda asking him leading questions when I wasn’t even gonna say yes. So I eventually said yes that day but after a few days I kinda backed out of it bc he brought it back up & was like hey did u still wanna go on that date with me? And I pretty much spilled but tried to say it nicely, which I think was confusing bc I basically said something like I still didn’t know if I wanted a relationship bc feeling single feels pretty good ( which is true, I wasn’t using that as an excuse, bc I’m such a hopeless romantic that takes first dates and long lasting lives seriously). And stuff like that ab holding the date off and thinking ab ut and he said he completely understands (but does he🤨). So idk if he saw that as rejection but for me personally I would think it wasn’t rejection YET and that there was maybe a chance. A day or two later, I completely regret my decision, I thought I was dumb to do that, maybe I do wanna date him? And planned to ask him on that first date after New Years as a “new year new Us” thing bc I’m cheesy like that but as that day approached I guess I realized that maybe I didn’t really want him fr and MAYBE I just liked the attention he gave me (#committmentissues?). I think a while after I posted this story that basically said the day I fix my posture is the day I’ll get into a relationship (never) and that was indirectly targeted at him and he saw it but never said anything (obv) soi think that was the official (indirect) rejection.. I do feel guilty ab leading him on with the crush questions and kinda saying I would go on that date but then saying no, and that actually maybe I didn’t want anything at all yet? The friendship is still the same as of rn but I do wonder what would’ve happened if he didn’t confess. So yeah thanks for reading LMAO I didn’t tell anyone ab me and him, only one of my friends know that he liked me but not ab the whole confession fiasco. Idk what’s gonna happen now, he genuinely is a good person and at first I felt very attracted to him bc he was such a hopeless romantic and we were practically twins