I constantly second guess my identity. Am I really nonbinary or am I just attention seeking? Am I really asexual or am I just making it up?
My entire childhood I tried to be somehow “different” from others because my sister has Aspergers which to me was a sign that she was different and thus better than me. I was just normal. Boring. I always wanted to be the youngest, the tallest, have the darkest hair, anything that would somehow set me aside from others.
And now, I have no idea if all the things I have found out about myself are just me trying to tell myself “You are different. You are special.”