I’m in love with my boyfriend very badly. But i have pretended to him that i’m very innocent when i was into e***** stuff like e***** hypnosis and erotica reading just not regular p***. I have never seen it but i’ve tried and i got repelled by it.I had already been m*********** for over an year. And once he mentioned that he would never like to see me indulged in something like that since its addictive and it would be heartbreaking for him. So i continued to pretend i knew less about s** and we always sexted a lot. And one day i couldn’t take it anymore and told him that i ‘started’ m***********. He thought it was because we were talking dirty. But i pretended i accidentally came across it and just it spoiled something between us already and now i actually want to tell him the whole thing but idk if i should or how i should. I think this is still not completely ruined like if he gets mad then its ok but if i tell him tooo late it will be a problem. But idk if i should tell him now at all. This is the only thing that is left hidden from him and it eats me up.