R*** aroused me. I tried to heal myself by strictly only watching cartoon p*** and never the real one just so I can stimulate disgust feeling if I ever see one, but no one can do..even today, the moment I see it, I would feel immediate heat. It’s disgusting. But I never raped anyone. I know it’s a wrong thing… I guess it has something to do with a man trying to r*** me when I was a child. I’m just too scared to go to a psychiatrist. Worried about getting a judgment.
Nobody who knows me knows about this. Sigh….wish I can just wipe this part of myself away