i don’t even think it was abt my moms hair tbh i think it was just the fact i’m unskilled in literally EVERYTHING i try at i can’t do sports i’m bad at it i s*** at homework and school im not smart i don’t have any special skills i can’t do makeup i cant play video games i cant talk to people and i know ppl r gonna say “well u gotta try to be good at it!” but even when i do try and consistently practice at things im STILL BAD AT IT i tried to do bowling and i really tried im so f****** weak i couldn’t even pick up the ball but i so desperately wanted to be good at it and everyone would just look at me and pity me and they would try to offer me tips it wouldn’t work it was so f****** embarrassing i just quit doing it im not even pretty either so if i’m not good at something there’s nothing for me to do i just wish i had something i was good at u know everyone has that and i don’t