I keep thinking about how much I want to have s** with my friend. I have this weird feeling given our past conversations it’s not impossible and I would never f*** without being in a relationship first usually, but I have feelings for my friend. She doesn’t want a relationship but has considered s**. It makes me think it’s my only chance to ever do anything with her at all. I haven’t asked about it nor want to but its on my mind at night sometimes and I want to so badly. I would rather date them formally and take them out places and shower them in gifts before s** but instead, I’m thinking about f****** her because it’s like supposedly my only realistic possibility idk am I bad for that?