more like not a first experience.
i (15f) just want to be in a loving relationship with someone that makes me happy and loves and that everyone else likes too. i’ve had vague opportunities but always say no whether it’s me worrying what everyone thinks of them, or my friends don’t like them, or they ditch me for someone else who they’re now in a committed relationship with.
anyway, because of this i haven’t ever made out with a guy ( and i also get too scared or sober) and i lied about having my first kiss, i’ve never kissed a guy at all actually.
and now i’m beginning to feel pressured to do stuff s******* and god do i want to but.. ugh i cant even explain this stupid problem. bye