I can’t stop thinking about killing myself. School and human interaction in general is just too f****** exhausting and I can’t take it anymore. My dad committed suicide almost 3 years ago and I don’t want to do the same thing before I become an actual adult but it’s so f****** hard to pretend I’m fine. I haven’t even gotten my first boyfriend or anything. I’ve never had a 1st kiss and I probably never will. It’s so hard to stay alive every day I think about killing myself by overdosing. I’m too scared to follow through with it but I hate my f****** life. I hate myself, my family, my dad, my classmates and teachers. Everything. I want to die but I f****** can’t I can’t do this anymore