A while ago I found out my mom regularly s**** my a****** abusive dad’s d***, and after that, I stopped telling her I love you, stopped giving her kisses, stop letting her kiss me, and generally began to act disgusted by her (telling her not to touch me, telling her not to get too close to me, etc).

None of what I did was an act, she truly disgust me now, and once I move out I look forward to never seeing her again.