I ghosted everyone, and I mean everyone that I possibly could who was my age in my life a while back. (This is maybe 40-60+ people from the same group.) I read all the texts they sent/send, but never reply/replied. Then they all stopped and I felt fine-ish, I didn’t think about them much. Today, someone came up to me at school and said “hey (my name) I have an awkward question… I’m friends with (one of the people) and (another one of the people) and-” I immediately cut her off and said “not talking about that, sorry” which is not what I should have done because now those people are going to know I’m aware of them. I should have just said “sorry, I don’t know who those people are” but I didn’t and now I’m pissed at myself. At first, I genuinely didn’t recognize the names, (that’s how much they weren’t in my thoughts anymore) but after she said the second name, I realized, and my heart started POUNDING. but whatever it’s fine I can’t change what I said now. anyways, so then the girl said “oh sorry it’s fine sorry if I made u uncomfortable” and walked away. and I was like “ur good.” and now I just feel like s***. I’m still holding my ground, I’m still not gonna talk to them bc I’ve gotten this far. But as if i wasn’t suicidal before this is such a 13th reason lmao