My wife and I had a fundamental s***** hurdle to overcome early on. I had never been much on getting a b*******. Felt weird and qas definitely something I was not a fan of watching. She loves sucking c*** but does it more for herself than me. But she is not into eye contact doing it. So she wanted to do it far more often than I wanted it. She seems to zone out and savor it. Eyes usually closed. But she does it very sensually and slowly, reverently, hell worshipfully. I am usually just eyes close as well floating in the sensations and never in a hurry to c**. It was her self absorbed focus that gave me the ability to watch and I just let her go and only gently rest fingers in her hair to feel connected during it. But the main reason I can handle it now and even watch her enjoy her selfish passion? The way her eyes open wide and roll back in her head or eyelids half close and flutter as every spurt flows into her mouth. She loves to have her hand on my balls or even a fingertip lightly touching my a** because as much as she loves every moment of it there is mothing she loves as much as feeling connected to every pulse and contraction as i c**. It is watching her enjoyment of it that taught me to enjoy it.
