I am still utterly in love with an ex boyfriend, of which I ended things with 4/5 years ago. I have utter regret in ending things, and know we were soul mates. He is now in a long term relationship where I fear he will propose, as I know he wanted marriage. I am 2 years into a new relationship. I would leave my current relationship in a heartbeat to be back with my ex boyfriend. I miss him dearly, think about him most days and dream of him often. Part of me thinks one day we will find our ways back to each other, when the timing is right. One of my biggest fears is that he will not feel the same way back, now or later.