I was sexually abused by my grandpa since I was about 7. I'm 22 now. The reason why I'm confused is that when he did those things to me,I actually liked

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I was s******* abused by my grandpa since I was about 7. I’m 22 now.

The reason why I’m confused is that when he did those things to me,I actually liked it. It feels good,there were times when I willingly went to his room wanting to be eaten out. I was about 12 when I realized this isn’t normal.

My 2 cousins were also his victims.

Am I disgusted by it? A little bit.
Does it traumatized me? Maybe,my brain is fucked. I can’t feel emotions like normal people do.
Did I tell anyone? No. He said that I would be in trouble if I did and ofcause that worked on me,I was a child.

I’m now hypersexual. And the truth is,I still go to my grandparents house,only when my grandma isn’t there (she goes to the hospital every 2 days for dialysis) so i could have s** with him. I don’t think ‘s**’ is the right word since he can’t get it up anymore. But I’d have him finger me,use a d**** on me and eat me out.

I know I’m not normal. S***** things happened and now I’ve grown up to be a s***** person. I also steal money from my grandma’s purse. Why? She knew I was being raped and did nothing to stop it. She literally walked in on him r***** me and acted like she didn’t saw anything. I think of it as compensation money and a way to make myself feel better. I’ve stolen about 2k. Oh pls don’t feel bad about her,their rich.

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I’ve watched p*** for 9 years I’m 16 I know it’s really unhealthy but Im too addicted, at 14 I got drunk at a hotel sleep over with a few known friends we were all the same age there was a cute girl there and since I was really drunk I stayed up all night in the bathroom and I saw he swimsuit I m*sturbated to it and I felt really horrible when I realized what I did in the morning, when I was 9 or 10 there was this one girl that was always attached to me and I think she was 6 and I took it the wrong way because I thought maybe she was attracted to me or something I kept having weird perverted thoughts but never did anything and I’ve felt horrible ever since I genuinely don’t know what I’m doing with my life and I regret everything

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