I started out normal heterosexual. Then bisexual giving BJs. Now a NSA black man has made me wonder if I’m not just gay. I really love b********* and want to live a gay lifestyle but what if I can’t get used to kissing men etc.? I dream of showers and being a bottom but can I get used to intimacy with men? Do I just give in and totally be an older gay white man into black men? Could I be the submissive little f***** partner to a yummy black man? I think so but I just don’t know. I’m obsessed with being a gay man and I long to be in a gay relationship with a black man, but can I do it? What will everyone think? Am I just giving in to the taboo or am I just really gay? I think I am probably totally gay and wonder if I can find love in the arms of a man. I do love having s** with men and will never stop. I’ll just say it. I’m an older white gay man who loves having s** with black men. I think that is just who I am. So freeing to say that. I am a gay man. I’m physically and s******* attracted to men. Maybe I just need to live my truth. I’m gay. I’m homosexual. I never thought I’d say this but I love men.