About 5-6 months ago. I catfished a guy. I catfished him and a friend group that we were in for about 2 years.
I’ll call the guy that I catfished “F”. I catfished him for so long because before I met him, I was insecure about myself due to household abuse problems and it led me down to a dark path(seeing things I wasn’t supposed to see, doing things I wasn’t supposed to be doing). I don’t want it to seem as an excuse for all the things I’ve done/seen but that’s the truth.
When I first started catfishing, I met a group of people and for 2 months I was just going along with everyone and everything was fine. After those 2 months is when “F” was introduced to the friend group by another friend. He invited a couple other friends to the server. I didn’t really like how any of them acted and so I looked down upon them. I had a girl that I was in a relationship with and so “F” pressured me to break up with them. “F” and me got together after maybe a week or two after me ending that relationship. At first I was going to troll “F” because I thought it’d be fun. It never stopped because I was too caught up in the feeling of someone being there for me. at the time I mistook my own feelings as “love” when in reality I was just lonely and wanted some attention from someone. Days grew to weeks and weeks grew to months. After pretending to be someone for so long, I broke. And so I tried to end mine and his relationship. I would try things like being mean with him and flirting with other people. After a few ideas not working, I finally found out a way to break up with him easily. He was watching my friend(We will call him “A”) A’s stream and you could see him tabbing back and forth between the game he was streaming and his text messages. I got another friend to tell “A” that I had feelings for him. When my friend texted “A” he naturally tabbed back to his messages. “F” saw the messages that said I had a crush on him. After “F” saw those messsages, he texted me and asked me if there was something I needed to tell him. I told him that I had feelings for “A” and that I was sorry. “F” Blew up on me and went on a rant about all these things that he did for me and how much he loved me. He then next, sent a message that implied that he knew I was a catfish this whole time. I continued to act like I didn’t know what he was talking about , then he finally told me that he knew I was a catfish. He knew ever since the beginning of the relationship (about 1.5-2 years). He loved me unconditionally and that’s when it hit me. What I was doing was so wrong. I immediately blocked him and he tried telling everyone I knew. I tried to tell everyone that he was lying(which didn’t work much). He and his friends new my social media accounts and doxxed me. They contacted my siblings, parents, etc. and I got grounded for about 2 months. Fast forward to now, I feel bad for my actions and I really regret ever doing this. I still think about all of those people that I catfished and it makes me feel guilt mostly. I sometimes miss “F” because of the person who he was. He was a very bad person, but he was good to me. He was a good person as a friend, I wrote this because lately guilt has consumed my mind and I feel like I need to confess somewhere to get this off my chest.