I admit it did not make since to take all the classes when I was failing my tests. It didn’t make since for me to study for f on my exams. I should’ve flunked or dropped out of school. I was never good at dance and sports. I should’ve never tried out for the team. I didn’t know how to play the games. I was never good at art. I don’t know how to write. My poetry isn’t good enough. No one bought my books. My reports at work and essays in college were never that good. My plays were stupid. I shouldn’t have owned a business because I’m poor and I don’t know how to run one and I am too poor to keep it up. Joining organizations and donating to charity I was giving away money. It never made since for me to be a lawyer because I’m poor. I’ll always be poor. It didn’t make since to pass those classes when I was always failing tests and assignments. It didn’t make since to work my job position. I should’ve dropped out and became a cashier or food server instead like my neighbors. I am so poor I was humiliated with my poor dress. I cried I couldn’t do the work other students could do. I always felt like an outcast. Like I don’t belong in school or at work because I don’t know what I’m doing. I try and I’m always failing. Everything I tried to do in life I