I’ve been doing things lately that are totally out of character for me. I just jumped into a relationship with a guy I barely knew. Dont get me wrong. He’s a great guy. I’m cheating on him. Not consistently, but twice. We’ve only been dating for a week so I feel like I should just end it now. Truth is, he’s the best I can get. I just ended a year long relationship because I cheated for the first time ever. Just once. Didnt mean anything, but it’s enough. I cried for days. I felt like a terrible person. This time, though, I feel nothing…

I feel like I’m getting more and more heartless everyday. It’s killing me. I need to change. I have no one to trust and no one to talk to.