I hate my older brother.

I have tried to poison him.
I have tried to kill his wife.
I have tried to make him lose his newborn son.

I know what I’ve done is horrible and I do not feel guilty.
My mom always loved my brother more and she always compared me to him or other people, like my cousins ect.
I’m the disappointment in the family.
They hate my personality.
They hate how I act.
They hate everything about me.
I am an outcast to my family.
They judge me and make fun of me every chance they get and I hate it.

I hate my f****** brother.
I hate being compared to him.
I hate being around him.

I hate my f****** mom.
I hate being treated like a child.
I hate being yelled at.
I hate being hit.
I hate being forced to do things because If I don’t I’ll go to my dads house and see the uncle who touched me.
I hate being called a liar.
I hate feeling useless.
I hate that my mom didn’t believe me when I told her that I was touched by an older man.

I f****** hate my family.
I’m going to kill myself.

I can’t handle being here anymore