I don’t like my boyfriend.
I have never felt romantic feelings for him.
I feel bad that I’m constantly lying and telling him that I love him every day, I should tell him but I cant.
Everyday I wake up feeling like s*** just because I couldn’t say no to someone when they confessed to me.
I got nervous and told him that I liked him back because I didn’t want to ruin our friendship. But now I’m miserable, I’m not emotionally stable enough to have a relationship because of my previous ones ( and because of what I’m going through currently) . I’m honestly mad at myself for letting this happen to me again. ( in my previous relationship, I dated someone for a year because I felt like I HAD to say yes to them. ) I’m a horrible person for letting this happen and I know that.
My boyfriend is a good person and our relationship isn’t toxic at all, He loves me and always gives me affection.
I’m the problem. I don’t want his affection or his love, I don’t deserve it.
He’s a wonderful person to be around but I always feel like s*** because I’m in a relationship with someone I don’t even like romantically.
I should’ve said no,
And now I regret not saying it.