I hate my “girlfriend” i honestly have no idea how i ended up with one but i will take accountability. I shouldve stated my terms and took the wheel and corrected the situation instead of being dragged into a relationship im not proud of and didnt want in the first place. Ill say one thing about empathy is that it will tightly bound your life the same way codependency does….I regret alot of things dealing with this individual. For one i believe im losing myself. Ive gained a great amount if of weight because our lifestyles are so different. I spent 10 years in healing preparation for the next relationship i wanted and this here is now tearing down all if this work ive done in ten years because this individual is draining. She takes and takes and takes….because she has much healing to do herself. Granted i asked her if she was ready for this type of deal to and agreed that she

Im a man with no children…i have high education Accolade’s….. i come from a decent family…i also take pride in the way i think and have brought up. Im not in no sense of the word perfect but i do try to make up for my mishaps. Theres been so many signs that point toward i shouldn’t be with this person yet i continue. We come from different cultures. they are too extremes. To the point where they clash. But i think personally its just this family because ive been side by side with this culture and didnt have these same issues m. But i DIGRESS.

Im stuck because im dependent. We run schemes and finesses that allow myself and this individual to stay above water because money is tight. If it wasnt for that id leave in an instant. In this teo year span i have been through the stages of