This weekend signifies the end of what was ultimately my life force since I was teenager. 28 years of wasted time, talent, and abilities that could’ve been put to much much greater uses. I have already found new passions that are far more rewarding, and will spend the rest of my days pursuing those, but I’ll always feel unaccomplished, short changed, and screwed over for what I had dedicated the bulk of my life to all those years. I was never cut out for this. I can’t believe it took me this long to realize it. I always believed I was cut out for more and/or better than what I was given, but it never came, the realization that I am less than common even, and a mostly worthless human being is hard to cope with. It’s one of those things that’s always been in the back of my head but now is coming to it’s full realization. 2 more decades to get through (which I will also most likely f*** up royally) then I am making my exit from this life. No one will miss me, those closest to me resent and/or hate me, and the people I wanted in my life rejected me and never gave me a chance in the first place. The collective sigh of relief everyone will have upon news of my passing will be the one good thing I ever did with my life. Literally nothing worked out the way it was supposed to. Auto pilot here on out until I’m done f****** up this last goal……