i abandoned my little brothers at my dads, my family is f****** psychotic, all of them are, im from a family of monsters at this point,my brothers are my half brothers and i havent been to see them in ages maybe a year or two, uh, im a 15 year old trans male, i live with my mom who sorta raised me as a single mother, my dad cheated on my mom with a 16 year old at the age of 21 so hes a p********, at first he didnt know her age but when he found out he stayed with her and later had two kids with her, shes a psychopath too, i think my dads just a sociopath, everyone in my family is transphobic and homophobic, as well as christian, well i didnt think my dad cared until he told me not to say “gods name” hes a pretty big buy, not fat just really tall, hes abt 6’4, my mom supports me and isnt a christian but even so she still isnt the best mother in the world and she knows it, i know i should be greatful and i know she isnt as bad as my family, my aunt is a narcissist with some weird power complex, my cousin abandoned me at my grandmas place after i begged her multiple times to pick me up bc i wasnt safe, my grandma is a narcissist in denial and likes to chase you into a bathroom and bang on it for hours threatening to beat your a**, that was just the last time i was there and yk i mean maybe that was my fault, maybe this is all my fault i mean why couldnt i just be born in their picture of normal but it doesnt matter, what matters is im too much of a coward to go back and deal with my transphobic family to go see and make sure my brothers know i havent forgotten abt how much i f****** love them, all because im too cowardly to just s*** it up be an adult and see them, god i need to grow up instead im sitting here in my depression room barely keeping my room and my life together, its fine bc ill get whats coming to me for what ive done, i know i wont last much longer anyway.