God,I did some s*** in my younger years. I think I got groomed when I was younger cause I acted like an idiot. It was alot of stuff,and I had a weird amount of feelings. I did some things I’m not proud of. Cause I was lonely,sad,without meaningful and steady connections. I’m not a romantic and I feel awful. God I hate myself sometimes. I don’t think I hurt anyone but I did some s*** I’m not proud of,that I don’t like. I don’t want that to be me. I want to be someone that people like. I don’t want to be the teenager that decided to Bury his feelings and wants which cheap flings and p***. I don’t want to be the kid begging girls to do s***. I don’t want to be an outcast. I will change and I want to change. But I refuse to be the regular a****** I was.