Not gonna lie, it gives me great pleasure to know you are suffering. I’m glad your kids hate you even if it does break your heart. You deserve all the pain and way more. You should realize that it is not going to get better with time. They are not going to come around. They are going to get fed up and cut the rest of ties for good. Look at your sisters and your father. That’s going to be you. Old, and no contact with your kids, your grandkids will grow up without you. It’s your own fault. You had a choice. You choose a dirty skank who destroyed your family then she’s all you get. You don’t get to have your true blood family and the b**** who took you from them. You get one or the other.