I was 8 years old, had an older neighbor about 11. He lived directly behind me. We spent a summer together with his cousin who was 13. We also lived next to an empty lot that had a creek go through it. One day we were playing in the creek. The older cousin pulled out his c*** and had a b****. First time I’d ever seen someone get hard. Being young had no idea how a person could make their d*** grow. For me it was magical, it really captured my attention. The 3 of us spent the night out in a tent. The whole evening, we were naked. The older boys were showing me how they could get hard. Was absolutely fascinating. First, it started stroking their c****, playing with their balls. Next, they had me put their c**** in my mouth and start sucking. The first time I put one of their c**** in mouth, they got hard. It was the most incredible sensation ever. As we continued throughout the summer continuously sucking. We moved on to them putting their c**** in my a**. Hurt as hell the first time, but soon felt so good having each of them take turns poking my a**. Truth is I got addicted to it that summer, certainly without any regrets. They had told me this was a way for them to practice before they tried it with girls. After we spent that summer full of sucking and being fucked in my a**. I realized I wanted to be a girl. I had no desire to try with a girl, I wanted to be the one sucking and receiving like the girls