I reached out to you today with my little positive news because when I tried to tell him, he made me feel guilty, like I didn’t deserve it more than he deserved it.
I reached out to you because your the absolute only adult I can honestly talk to that will actually at least pretend to be happy for me even if it’s just for a minute.
I reached out to you because I thought talking/texting with you even just a little would somehow help mend this empty feeling that has been growing for weeks now.
I’m battling harder now than ever…. If I lose, I hope you’ll always remember how much I loved you and just how amazing you have always been in my eyes.

I can’t keep pretending with him.