GODDD it’s not like im in love with my best friend but like i care about her so much i’m willing to do anything for her. she is the person in this whole wide world i care most about. whenever i’m with her i feel so safe, happy, excited, comfortable and i forget all my worries. i hate when others get too close to her, yes i want to her to have more friends but in the same time i feel like they don’t deserve her? i hate that she cant see how beautiful she is, and how she wants to die. i try my best all the time to cheer her up and listen to her. i just hope that my presence slightly makes her hopeful and wants to live. her touch makes me feel happy and safe. talking to her makes me happy. how can i be in love with her when im not even sure if im bi or not? but i realize that sometimes my actions show as if im in a relationship with her. as i said i don’t want people to get too close with her, and tbh i do get jealous of others who get too touchy with her. im confused, but oh well i treasure her so much.