i pretend that i’m okay with being alone and single, i’m in high school now, and i haven’t had a relationship in years. i know only being in high school, i don’t need to be in a relationship but i miss being in love. i miss the feeling of love, i miss being loved, and i miss loving someone romantically. i want to be held and cared for and treated like i’m the only girl that matters to someone. i want to be able to kiss someone and feel the butterfly’s in my stomach. i feel so alone while my friends are out being in love and experiencing everything. i don’t want to be in love to late. i want my young innocent high school love. i’m so jealous of my friends for being able to find romance. but yet i’m so scared to find a lover. i have no clue what it’ll be like and i’m terrified to open up to someone romantically. i want love so badly