I had made a suggestion to a friend of a friend whether we should date. I was a f****** idiot and I don’t remember if I was serious about it but later on it was revealed to me that she felt uncomfortable and that my friend was ending contact with me. I didn’t eat for days,I couldn’t look myself in the mirror. I don’t know if I’m sad because of it being revealed or cause I miss him. He was an old friend and someone I trusted. I miss him,I want to hurt him, I want him to feel jealous of me,i want to stop thinking about him, I want my brain and my heart to feel empty again,not this vague yearning for something.
