I had s** for the first time at 12. I didn’t want to but my ex convinced me. He said it was our only chance to have s**. He lied of course, he found plenty of occasions to f*** me anywhere after that. All the time. He forced me to s*** him off even though he smelled like piss. We also did a*** and he made his animals lick me. He never wore a condom. The first time he made me take plan B after. And after that he just didn’t care. Thankfully I never got pregnant and sometimes when I was worried I would also take plan B myself.

He also liked humiliating me. He would talk about how many fingers he could fit into me with his siblings and with his friends when I was there. He would also touch me under my clothes in public and he liked when I tried to pull away. We broke up when I was 14 and his best friend’s mom said I should sleep with his son because best friends have to share and she asked me what it felt like being eaten out by my ex because he had a split tongue. His best friend’s family would talk down to me and tell me to sit on their lap and pass me around.