I want to send a formal apology. I want to apologize for the words I said and the actions I took against you. I know we didnt always agree and sometimes I wonder if we ever should’ve been friends to begin with. I’m angry. At myself, at you, and the world. I feel terrible putting you through what I did. I’m afraid for the future because of my past. I blamed stuff I did on things that were inherently out of my control but I knew it wasnt always true. I struggle to think before I speak. I try to be understanding and listen to others but it’s hard. It’s hard constantly living in a state of being knowing everyone around you has there own thoughts and actions apart from yours. I didnt take into account of what you were truly feeling in that moment. I was selfish. And I wish we were talking still not because I want to be friends but because I want to apologize to you personally. I truly think not being friends anymore and going our separate ways was for the best but I do wish it wouldve ended on better notes. I wish I could say I’m doing better without you but somedays it doesnt feel that way. I’m sorry I truly am. And I hope someday you can think about me not in a negative light but in a positive one. With the memories we made together. I know I do. I spend almost everyday remembering the fun adventures we’d have. I’m sorry and I wish you could hear me say it.
