i have yandere-ish tendencies

not the romantic kind, ew, no

more like, platonic, romance is not my thing, but because of that i end up pouring the “love” i have into platonic love, i get so aggressively protective of people i care about that i end up promising them that i’d bury a body for them if needed

to the point it gets obsessive, clingy, all that annoying s***

i hate bothering people, and i also hate it when people bother me

i’ve become fearfully avoidant of making connections with people, or close connections, because I dont want them to be put through that sort of s***

i think i’ve sort of fixed that part of me? because i realized it was because i was lacking in a lot of things, for example, the reason i was so aggressively protective of other people is because nobody ever protected me during my time of need, where i was desperate for someone to shield me from the hits, and screams of someone who was supposed to raise me.

the reason i was so doting, to the point of obsession, was because i never had someone like that as a child

haha

now im just afraid of people, because i dont want them to hurt me