I’m in love with you. All I want to do is be with you. I keep lying to myself and trying to get over it, but I can’t. I broke up with my boyfriend because of you and I know you never promised me you would do the same, but I can’t help but be angry with you sometimes. I just wish we were on the same page. This is the only time I have had feelings for a girl that had feelings for me. We kissed the other night, not cheating her boyfriend said she’s allowed to explore with girls, and I thought it would make me so much better because it would get rid of all the tension and I did feel better for a day or two. But now, seeing you with him, it drives me insane. I want you more than just physically, I want all of you. And I know all of this isn’t your fault, it’s not your fault I fell in love with you. But sometimes I hate you. I hate you for choosing him over me. I hate you for now loving me the same back. And I know that’s selfish, which is why I’ll never tell you. I’ll love you from a distance, I’ll smile and give helpful advice when you talk and complain about him, I won’t overstep our boundaries and I won’t tell you how much I’ve fallen in love you, because I love you that much, that sometimes I hate you. You truly are all I want. I would wait months for you. But I can’t wait on a lost cause, so I’ll keep it all to myself. I just wish you felt the same way.
