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I keep getting emotionally close to a foreign woman, who is currently engaged to a man from her country. She and I have tried to stop but we feel drawn to each other and end up talking for hours on the phone. I told her early on that I wanted her to make a decision about if she really wanted this marriage, and it seems like she is torn. I feel a bit of guilt because I know it’s wrong for us at this time, to get emotionally close and we have had p******** before. It’s nice to know there’s a woman that wants me, but has a very hard decision to make, as she wants her freedom from her mother who is very controlling of her. She believes marriage is the way to get that freedom. I should be a better man in this situation and let her go gently, I guess I’m just holding on to a possibility of her coming to the U.S. and us being together. We get along really well and have common interests. She has told me it’s hormones that’s making us like this, and yet it feels like we were destined to meet for whatever reason. She’s told me she loves me a few times now, and I feel like I’m a man stuck in between. I should be a man and just say “Listen, we really like each other and I know you have a lot of goals you want to achieve. I would like this connection we have to work out, we either both need a lot of patience for situations to change or we should just let it fizzle out, and maybe be friends.” It’s very tough for me because I haven’t had a woman in my life like this in a long time. I’m just rambling but letting it all out.

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