If i owned a gun I would tottally shoot myself int he head right now. Id take pills but Im afraid ill wake up retarded and id jump but im afraid of heightrs. fgor some reason I cant crash myt car. F***. I tried getting really high and drowning myselkf in the bathtub but i just inhaled water and started hacking my lungs out. id hang myself but Im pretty sure my belt or the wall would break before my neck would. im going to my happy place. I hate you all.