i feel so uncomfortable right now. My life is so tedius aggrevating and boring. Ive never been more frustrated in all areas of my life. S******* being first and foremost. I feel like im dying and decaying inside. Im too young to feel this absolutely defeated and hopeless. I feel like a dark cloud is beginning to hover over me while everyone else is thriving and happy. Not a day goes by i dont think about suicide. Last night I thought i was gonna end it all but i held on and distracted myself enough.