That was one of the most fucked up things I’ve ever done. I tried to have it all taken down. Thats half the reason I started putting myself out there as much as I did. So there’d be way more compromising stuff of me on the internet that I’d never be able to get taken down than any of the girls I fucked over when I was a full blown hateful incel between 2019 and 2021. It’s one of those things I wish I could apologize for. But I know that I just have to live with it. To apologize is to admit guilt. To open myself to retribution for my crimes. When it comes down to it. I’m a comfortable coward. I can’t do it. There’s 2 girls in particular I really regret hurting, but I know any efforts to make amends at this point will just end badly for me. I’d rather just die for my sins. That’s why I cornered myself and got caught on purpose. I can’t live with myself anymore. I posted revenge p***. It wasn’t technically illegal, but it was morally reprehensible. I attempted to extort and intimidate people over the internet. I cyberstalked people. I just want to leave that part of my life behind, a nd try to be a better person, but my past has finally caught up to me. The only thing to do if I can’t weasel my way out of this one and succesfully dissociate the guilt and loneliness away is to jump. I’m in too deep now.