I have been with my boyfriend for almost 3 years, no dating other people, no breaks. I love him, I do, but I’m not sure it’s in the same way anymore. In the beginning, nothing and no one could compare to him. I always had him at the top of my list of priorities. There used to be no doubt in my mind that we would get married someday, and now I don’t know if I can say the same. Within the last year, I have felt sort of distanced from him. We were close to a break up not to long ago on my behalf, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. I couldn’t hurt him, even though he said he just wanted me to be happy. I am happy with him, but I also know that I could be just as happy without him. I don’t want to say I feel held back or tied down, because I don’t. But I feel I can enjoy myself more with friends. I am only 17, and sometimes I question myself, “Why do I put myself through this? Why stress out about anything? I am only seventeen.” Senior year is coming up and I just want to be able to enjoy my last year of high school the way I want to. Even more recently, something has come up. I have a best friend (who is a guy… yeah it’s kinda one of those stories). I have known him only a year longer than my boyfriend. This bestfriend of mine is also one of my boyfriend’s closest friends. I used to have a thing for this best friend, but got over it as time went by beacuse I realized our friendship was worth more than that. I have been getting closer to my best friend helping him with some problems. As we got closer, I kinda felt something between us, something that wasn’t always there. I see him and can’t help but smile. He is beginning to get over someone, and moving on to someone else. I am so very happy for him because I’m seeing that smile of his light up again, that pure, genuine smile. That’s the part that gets to me. When I like someone I become a very jealous person about them, but with him, I don’t care who or what it is. just want him to be happy. That’s all I want for him, whether that person is me or not. I have a feeling my relationship with my boyfriend is coming to an end, not because of my best friend, but because I have come to the realization that we are both very different people who want different things. As for my boyfriend, I wish him nothing bu happiness. I am happy and I just want all of those I care about to be happy. I don’t know what to do, so I guess I’ll just let it out and go with the flow. Ugh, being 17 is hard… lol