It will be such a relief if he wasnt here. Like a lot. I dont want any tension. I just wanted to be happy and be with good terms with everyone else. I just wanted to be happy and be myself again without doubting myself and others. I just wanted to be friends with people, with everybody. I dont want to hurt anybody and just let the course flow. Damn, I just want to be myself again and be with good terms to everybody without malice. Ill find myself again. This time im doing myself right as I would to others. I am going to be just myself again. Without judgements, without expectations towards others, always growing and being kind. The self that I have loved for so long. And for those I assumed were suffering: *hugs* i really mean for you to be okay, dont be afraid to reach out for help if you needed it, okay?
