I cheated on my gf with a h***** today. It wasn’t even an enjoyable experience. I feel awful and want to die. I feel even worse knowing that the urge to do it again will arise again when the shame eventually dissipates . I feel trapped like there’s no escape from my own fucked up psychological urges. I say psychological because I wasn’t even h****. What the f*** is wrong with me. How do I escape this dead end loop.
