I wish people could just be happy for me when I get to do cool things, I always am for them when they do. When I get my chance I get s*** talked and people attempt to bring me down and discourage me. It’s not fair. I think I’m gonna start doing that when my friends and loved ones have things going on they are excited about, see how they like it. Most likely I will be condemned and ostracized for it, just like when they do it to me and I attempt to defend my stance. Literally every single person in the entire world besides me is right and I am always wrong apparently no matter what I do. I think one day I probably will just kill myself and be done with it all, I have lots of things that lonely people wish they had, and those people would tell me I should be happy I have all these soul sucking mind vampires in my life when there’s other people who don’t have anyone. I give everyone what they want and ask for, work hard and do everything I can to hold up my end, and all I get is grief. Sadly this is also the best I’ve ever had it in my life.