Hi everyone, not sure if i should be confessing or calli g women helpline. My husband and i just had a fight, an ugly one.. so we stopped drinking or smoking as a new years resolutions and today because of work load he decided we’ll have wine and we did.. i could only take half a glass nothing more.. after that i went back to my bedroom to have a chat with my mom in india.. that went for 20 mins.. my husband is now in the room obviously asking me if we can have s**, to which i was not interested because i was very tired and the wire made me a little drowsy.. he asked me several times and I told him no.. after some time he just starts touching me.. i didn’t respond or get offended by it.. when he was getting more closer is when i told him no.. the conversation went to a different level now.. by now im on my bed laying and him just sitting on bed.. i have a voice which is sharp and when im angry it sounds more like im shouting.. he kept on telling me not to shout and i kept replying saying my voice gets to that pitch when im angry.. he got pissed and had his thigh near my neck and his hand covering my mouth saying shut up.. i obviously got pissed because he has way more energy than me and i couldn’t get up.. i tried and tried and it seemed like we were quarreling.. he pulled my hair and threw me out of bed… he was getting abusive talking about past calling me c*** and what not… i obviously got pissed… i slapped him.. he even told i dont do anything when i clearly earn more than him.. then he changed his point to saying i paid last month’s rent.. i mean how conveniently he changed… i lost a lot of hair in this fight 😭 and i know the kind of person he is.. to stop this i had to leave the house at 1am midnight with -1 degrees outside.. i dont drive… trying to figure out if i should call the women helpline or what.. cannot really discuss this with my parents… because end of day i know what they’ll say..