I’m starting to have feelings for a girl after a few months after being out of a bad relationship and I’m so scared. I made the horribke choice to talk to my friends/roommates about it and her and one of them found a way to meddle and tell her everything even thought he times we hang out it wasn’t soecified whether it was a date or not. I should’ve joked along with the date thing and made it a moment I’m so dumb Jesus anyways. I know it’s just a crush and I shouldn’t be as intense as whatever this is while I’m drunk r but unfiltered stuoid brain not entirely true probably I keep comparing you to Amaya in my head and that’s stupid but it’s similar right now and I keep thinking about staring at you while “trying” to draw you FBSHFHSHCHDUFJDUDHDHDUFHEUFUCURHFUEHCIE WHY IS IT SO EMBARRASSING EW EW EW EW EW I have a huge even happening tomorrow and I’m thinking ab you that’s so weird feelings are weird weird weird maybe I’ll forcing myself to do this I don’t know I think I’m forcing myself but the heart racing and the weird full feeling in my chest when you get brought up makes me feel different but when I see you in person I just want ti be around you more EW WHY DO I SOUND LIKE THAT EW WHY DID TRINITY BABE TI F*** THIS UP WHY WOUKD I TELL THEM ANYTHING