why do i want another child when i can’t even handle the three that i have. i keep secretly wishing that i’m pregnant again and but lying to people and telling them i don’t want anymore and would be devastated if I found out that i was pregnant again. I am here cramping thinking i’m going to start my period any day now and wondering why in the world would i ever want do sleepless nights again, especially since my kids still give me a hard time at night