After being in a abusive relationship for 17 years I find myself back at my parents house…. My father is very controlling and sometimes I don’t want him to know that I am awake because he will then want me to do chores on top of having a 45 plus hour a week job…. I have a dog so I have dog pads just in case she has accidents… Sometimes I also use her dog pads just because I don’t want anyone to know that I am awake… Because I just want to be by myself sometimes