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“And I can see you
And I believed you
But now I lead you
Just to leave you

Put me on this little rock
And put me in this little box
And tell me everything is fine
And hush me when I begin to cry
Assure me this is all a plan
That I am guided by his hand
Then push me into a bigger box
With all the little spots
Then watch us grow into bigger spots
Then move us into a bigger box
And all the while, the ticking clock
Keeps ticking as our bodies rot
Release me out into the wild
And paint this darkness with a smile
Then push me through the assembly line
The clock keeps ticking, eating time
The lines begin to blur and fade
As time is stripped and falls away
And now I’ve reached our final days
Just hoping you will let me stay

And I can see you, through all the broken glass
And I believed you, were everything I’d asked
But now I lead you, through all the smoke and ash
Just to leave you, inside my broken past

Silence forced it’s way between us
Counting down to the day I leave us
Walking at the edge of time
And you were on the other side
The skies churn violently all around us
How could the sounds here not astound us?
We fall inside the same hole
Hands full of dirt try’na gain control
But the more we claw and the more we kick
Means the more we draw out the blood is sick
And now the blood it drips until it filles and it clots
And we thrash and we scratch, and we swim to the top
The lines begin to blur and fade
As time is stripped and falls away
And now I’ve reached our final days
Just hoping you will let me stay

And I can see you, through all the broken glass
And I believed you, were everything I’d asked
But now I lead you, through all the smoke and ash
Just to leave you, inside my broken past”

last chance to choose me. illbjjb

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